January 2012
6 posts
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Fear to Love
I see so many people scared to love someone. In most cases, scared to love again. You really need not to be scared of love—loving and being loved. It’s an amazingly beautiful thing when you open up your heart, especially when other people would like it to remain shut.
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One Nation Under God
I just finished watching this documentary on one of the largest “ex-gay” programs in the United States, and the world for that matter, from the perspective of the founders, in whom after 10 years of being professed “ex-gay, married me”, confessed their love for each other and are now speaking out against Exodus International.
An interesting documentary, but put together...
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Traveling
I need to make this year all about going places, seeing new things, trying stuff.
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2012
I’m pretty excited for a new year.
I can’t say that I didn’t enjoy 2011, but it was definitely emotionally draining and the most ridiculous roller coaster I’ve ever been on thus far.
December 2011
22 posts
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Caring
An old, close friend just told me recently that I don’t care enough about things. Sadly, he’s right. So, 2012, here’s to caring!
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Racing
You know that thing that happens to your body when you’re about to meet someone first the first time? You suddenly get nervous, slight knott in your stomach, and your heart starts racing.
That’s all.
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California
Everything’s better in California… I miss it so much.
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Each day
I know I’ve said it before, but I truly believe we’re meant to celebrate each day, laughing, enjoying each other’s company, smiling, and being joyful.
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Positivity
It’s easy, at least for me, to always look for what’s wrong, what’s not going to happen, what’s missing, but for this year I want to see things in a new light. I want to enjoy what I do have and what is good.
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is...
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Face value
I see that I’m much happier when I take things at face value.
I think they more we gain experience in life, learning from mistakes or hurts, we tend to overanalyze or read into a person’s motives. Stop. Give each person a new chance each time you are with them.
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Coffee.
You know the first person you ever had a crush on?
Well, after 7 years, we’re getting coffee together. I haven’t seen this person for 6 years now.
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Twenty
A new canvas of 365.25 days to paint on. I’m determined to make it a good one.
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Pushover
It’s the greatest feeling when you realize you’ve been a total pushover for years.
That’s done. I can’t keep going through the motions of life, relationships, situations. I have opinions, and I’m not just gonna keep compromising to make others happy.
That awkward moment when you miss your ex, who misses his ex, which then makes you realize that you weren’t really as big on an impact on your ex’s life than you though.
That one
domelife:
That you never stop loving. Even if they don’t love you.
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Matter
I uh… Wish it was easy to just not give a shit. Ha, but yeah right, right?
Moving
Four months ago I moved from beautiful, green California to brown, dry Nevada. However, I have this sense that I was moved to the dessert to find water, to find life. And I can see that so much has been refining these past months.
One person?
Postscript:
It’s daunting how one person can have so much weight on your life.
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I took a shower and found truth.
You know those epiphanies you have while taking a shower? Yeah, well I just had one.
In pondering why I tend to always do things in pattern, trying to justify that it’s human nature, that we all just go about doing things out of habit, out of ritual––motions; I came upon the realization that the current situation I find myself in, regarding a relationship with another person, is in essence...
Well
Things tend to get quite confusing at times, huh?
November 2011
16 posts
Human
When it comes down to it. We’re all human. We all have the same guts. Try to remember we’re all in this life together.
The wrong thing
I’m not a partier.
I don’t like getting crazy every night.
I like discipline.
I’d rather be in nature than inside all day.
Watching the sunset means more to me than caring about who’s doing what.
I want to make a difference in other people’s lives, not live this life for my own gain.
I am patriotic and don’t want to move to Europe like every other hipster...
My finger is too small
:(
Nice guys
Get pushed aside.
Haha!
We’re all just a bunch of fuckups. Cheers!
October 2011
5 posts
What the fuck.
This is what’s gone on in my life over just a month and a half:
Got my own apartment.
Got a boyfriend.
Two more friends ages 18-20 are pregnant.
Best friend’s dad is convicted of robbery and the family is collapsing.
Parents hate how I’m living my life and keep telling me.
Two very influential persons in my life have failed me.
Childhood idol is going nowhere, dreams...
“You’re a gay great… I mean a great gay. You’re a great gay.”
- A very dear friend.
Remember when you would smile and it was real?
In just 3 months
So many things happen in the course of 3 months, 3 weeks, 3 days. I don’t know how I am where I am today, but just 3 months ago my life was completely the opposite.
September 2011
18 posts
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There’s no point. Who cares.